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--»"I have never been thin in my entire life. not once. not even when i was a little girl. for my entire life, i've tried to lose weight. and after fifteen years, it becomes a little routine. so this is me, doing what i do worst. but this time, i want to succeed. all it takes it a little perseverance and self control." i am determined
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uhm, new site?
http://www.xanga.com/no___excuses
come and visit.
(re-add me, everyone!)
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| If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you don't ask, the answer is always no. If you don't step forward, you're always in the same place.
Nora Roberts
 
Grr, why can't I ever stick to anything? I keep saying, "Oh, it's okay, I'll just start over tomorrow." And then I obviously don't. Gah! What's wrong with me? It's not even that hard of a thing to do! Eat less, work out. That's it. Grr.
I will do this! | | |
| "Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try."
 
Another sleepness night. Joy. I'm completely bored and annoyed and just... ugh. It's 4am and I can't sleep and I don't want to sleep. What should I do? I should probably clean my room, that's what. Actually, that's what I'm going to do. Clean my room and rid myself of everything that I don't need. On Monday it's a new semester at school, and that can be a new start in everything. No, today will be my new start. =] I can do that. Maybe I'll even rearrange some furniture and fix up my closet! Yes, weekend project. Making a list, crossing off everything.
Clean room.
Rearrange furniture.
Organize everything.
Vaccum.
Do laundry.
Workout.
Shower.
The shorter it is, the more likely I'll get it done.
On a side topic, I get 10% off at GNC with my Student Price Card, so I'm thinking of maybe using it. I know that diet pills are like, bad or whatever, but I figure it could be a good thing to get me started. And it'd give me the energy to actually work out everyday. I dunno, I'm still thinking about it. Good or bad idea?
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| The greatest barrier to success is the fear of failure.
Sven Goran Ericksson
 
I'm scared, I'll admit that. I'm scared to death right now that I'm going to fail my Science exam. Because inside, and outside, I know that I don't have it in me to pull enough shit together to pass the exam. I don't know anything. I can't learn anything right now, because it's too late. I waited until the last chance possible to study, and now it's too late. It's 1am, and I've studied for- drumroll please- thirty minutes. Thirty. Fucking. Minutes. I can't even explain right now what I'm feeling.
I wish that I had gone to school. I wish that I had paid attention in class. I wish that I was smarter. But I didn't and I'm not and now I'm paying for it. ...I don't even know what to do right now. I'm tired, but I need to pass this class. I don't know if I should just stay up all night and try as much as I can to study, or just give up right now? Most of me wants to give up.
I actually think I might cry. I'm angry and annoyed and feeling more stupid than ever. If I pull my shit together and study for the next five hours, maybe, MAYBE, I'll be able to learn enough to pass. God, I hope so. I'll be tired during the exam, won't I? I'll have been awake for twenty hours when I write it. But it will be in the morning, so I'll be nice and awake. I'll take some energy pills, and then I'll be okay. I hope.
If I'm meant to pass, I'll pass, right? I don't know about that anymore.
Wish me luck. =/ | | |
| We know what we are, but know not what we may be.
William Shakespeare
 
Study day. Woo. Not. I'm really not looking forward to spending my entire day studying for exams. I'm going to fail Spanish anyways, so why try. I'm pretty much amazing in History, so that's good. It's just Science I need to do well on. I never never study 'cause I'm really bad at it. I mean, I don't even know where to start. Gah. I guess I'll just go over the review sheets, answer the questions, and hope for the best. I can do it!
I didn't go to sleep at all. I wasn't tired, so I surfed the web. =P Maybe I should have cleaned my room instead? It's looking pretty... hmm... tornado-like. That just might be the definition- aside from disaster, of course. But disaster is normally associated with tornado, sooo. I just had breakfast, only some apple sauce because that's all that looked appealing. We've got pretty much nothing in the house. Going grocery shopping tomorrow, so that'll be fixed by then. I'm going to go work out!
B- 2/3 cup of apple sauce(60)
diet soda(0)(i randomly wanted some despite it being 7am)
L- italian minestrone soup (says 100, but i'm saying 200)
D- tba
T- 260
- fifteen minutes on elliptical(it said i burned 52)
edit(1:22pm)
I haven't studied at all, that's super bad of me. But I did manage to do fifteen minutes on my elliptical trainer. I think I love that thing. Like, I'll be listening to my sansa('cause I'm too cool for ipods) and I'll be like, singing and dancing while I'm working out and the time will pass like it's nothing. I love it! And then the seat thing on it makes it easy for me to like, switch it up. Upright bike...elliptical trainer...elliptical trainer...and then make to upright bike. Suppperrr exciting.
Uhm, I have passed up pizza and chinese food for dinner. I just simply said that I didn't want that and my parents were like, "Oh, okay." I don't even want to eat dinner, which is EXTREMELY weird for me- 'cause I like food. So I dunno what's wrong with me. I haven't eaten like this for a looong time. Oh well. It is what it is. I'm going to go do...twenty minutes on the elliptical and twenty-five minutes on the upright bike part. | | |
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the rules
1. Always go by the plan I've set for that day and never go over my calorie limit.
2. Work out everyday.
3. Update xanga daily if possible.
4. Become better in every aspect of my life.
5. Get 5-8 hours of sleep every night.
6. Wake up at 5am every morning.
7. Take better care of myself!
8. Keep my room clean.
9. NEVER eat cafeteria or fast food!
10. Don't give up. =]
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to do list
i want
- thin face
- prominent collarbones
- flat stomach
- thin arms
- thin thighs
- no fat
- 117 <3
stats:
height: 5'8"
HW: 232
SW: 230
CW: see posts
LW: 204
rewards
200: workout DVD
195: shoes
193: hoodie
190: new book
187: paint room
185: have sleepover
183: go to the movies
180: ask about taking kickboxing
177: school shopping
175: frapp from starbucks
174: new jeans
172: eat out
170: try on bathing suit
167: CD
165: new workout DVD
162: wear new clothes
157: new book
155: DVD
150: go to the movies
145: new shoes
140: new book
137: frapp from starbucks
133: have sleepover
130: new book
125: mannicure
120: shopping
117: happy.
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aim
<3
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